“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving forward.”
The goal of The DOC Journey is not to get rid of your pain. In fact, there is no goal at all. There is no beginning or end to it. The only intention is to live your life fully with the deck of cards you have been dealt – with or without your pain – today. You must keep moving forward to move through your pain.
It would be nice to have less pain but it would also be great to have more money, enjoy prestige and power, be able to dunk a basketball, be a rock star and the list is endless. If you are waiting for your pain to disappear before you engage in a full life, your pain is still running the show.
Understandably, everyone wants to be free of pain. But that isn’t life. The brain treats emotional and physical pain in a similar manner and the body’s physiological response is the same. So even you were to be rid of your physical symptoms the quality of your life would not change as much as you might think. The emotional circuits will keep firing in response to day-to-day stresses.
Historically, I felt if I surgically relieved a specific severe symptom in a patient suffering with chronic pain, the degree of relief would be so compelling that it would propel him or her back into a full life. I could not have been more wrong. Unrelenting anxiety, which essentially is the chronic pain, was intolerable and it didn’t improve. This would occur even if the pain was originally generated by a structural problem that should have been easily relieved with the operation. What was also disturbing was that even if a specific pain resolved with surgery, another body part would frequently light up.
So, if you can’t fix yourself and there is no “goal”, what can you do? The patients who were successful in regaining their lives just moved on – with or without their pain. Paradoxically, there was a much higher chance they would leave it behind. Your brain will develop wherever you place its attention. One metaphor is that of diverting a river into a different channel. There is initially a small amount of water flowing in the new direction, but eventually the volume of water will create its own channel. There are many ways to re-direct. Some include:
- Not discussing your pain – ever with anyone.
- Mindfulness – active meditation
- Re-engaging with family and friends in a meaningful way.
- Awareness – simply watching where your attention is focused allows you to re-direct it.
A friend of mine, who may have been the first DOC success in 2006 sent me this email that suggested a different take on visualization. My take on the following quote is that people age because their dreams are crushed by anxiety.
Great quote from your latest post:
“It is not true that people stop pursuing dreams because they grow old. They grow old because they stop pursuing dreams.”
Gabriel Garcia Marquez
To your quote about anxiety crushing dreams and the ability of dreamers therein, I’d add that pushing through the anxiety and daring to dream, regardless of how you feel, creates an inverse effect of calming the anxiety, because sometimes, just having something to believe in, as simple as that, takes us out of our anxiety momentarily enough to see clearly, and thus move forward to a better place.
It works for me as a visualization tool to break the “anxiety cycle” as I call it. And if someone doubts this protocol, they only need to buy a lottery ticket. For the cost of $1, you walk out of that store and start visualizing what you’ll do with the money, and in that very moment, you’re not anxious. Instead, you find yourself, calming, your breathing slows, as you really indulge, if for only a few moments, how you’d be with all that extra cash on hand. It’s an amazing, albeit temporary salve, a balm to the anxious heart. And here’s the trick: We can recall that feeling over and over again and build on it, finding new ways to create the lives we want, just by using this tool of positive visualization. As our mind uses this, our thinking becomes stronger and we can begin to avert the waves of anxiety and in the spaces between, create constructive, positive events, in which to build the life of our dreams. Ironic that what starts with a fantasy – a one-dollar lotto ticket – can actually become reality, with positive visualization techniques tasked toward constructive events in real life context. And hey, we can use every tool we can find along the way, as I see it! Even for a buck!
Cheers and much love
Play circuits are also permanent and are present to a greater of lesser degree in everyone. Re-connecting with them, with or without your pain, is a powerful way out of pain. These circuits do get buried under the weight of life stresses, but you can create a shift back onto them with specific tools and repetition. This does not mean obsessively engaging in play to distract yourself. Rather, it is a mindset of wonderment and curiosity. Your body chemistry will shift to safety hormones and an inflammatory state, your brain will be less sensitized, nerve conduction improves, and your pain can dramatically decrease or resolve.
It is not logical to think that if your pain was gone that you could enjoy your life. There are too many ways to experience pain. You have to first learn to enjoy life, understanding there are days that you will enjoy it more than others. A positive outlook with a sense of play can keep you moving forward regardless of your circumstances.
An old song returns
One example I often use in clinic is that any time you do not spend time practicing a skill, you will eventually lose it. My wife played guitar in her 20’s and became proficient in a picking style of performing. A few years ago, she began to take lessons from an extraordinary Bay Area guitar teacher. About six months into her lessons, parts of some old songs began to return in her head. One day she sat down and played a complete piece that she had not thought about for decades. The memory was still there. Pain, anxiety and anger circuits will atrophy, if you turn your attention elsewhere. They will never completely disappear since these are also emotions that are necessary for survival. By being aware of their influence, you will gradually spend less and less time on them.
Nurturing the part of your brain that enjoys life is a learned skill. That is why it is so critical what you choose to program it with. If your default state of mind is that of being agitated and upset, that is what will evolve. As you trigger the same response in those close to you, then there is no end to this universal ping pong game. Conversely, if you choose gratitude and joy, the same phenomenon will lift you upward.
There is a lot to be angry about and also much to enjoy. What is your choice? How are you going to move forward?
Listen to the Back in Control Radio podcast Moving Forward with Your Pain.